[ She doesn't try to soften the impact of hearing that, the searing brand of empathy. So she may as well say it out loud: ]

If it was Nathan, I'd be acting just as stupid.

But if your mind is shredded doing this, if your soul is scattered to the nine winds, if you look at him and have no idea who he is anymore - or worse, if you've been twisted into the sort of creature that would harm your own child, like I have been -

He will blame himself, and he will carry that forever. If he survives it.